every day that passes i feel more & more alienated from people! it’s super cool to always feel like you’re dumb. :D
& when i say dumb, idk. it means a lot of different things. i’m intelligent enough, but i’m also really spacey. AND I’M A VISUAL LEARNER -WEEPS-. and like i can’t remember who it was… but someone called me autistic within the past 5 years & it’s bothered me ever since. i could be, maybe? whenever i meet people with asperger’s, I NEVER KNOW UNTIL SOMEONE TELLS ME. LIKE THEY SEEM COMPLETELY NORMAL TO ME. but then everyone’s like “YOU COULDN’T TELL?!”
IT’S LIKE THE SMELL THING WITH TIM
EVERYONE SAID HE SMELLED BAD
BUT I NEVER SMELLED HIM?! HE NEVER SMELLED BAD TO ME?!
so like… since i don’t notice it, i’m like paranoid-believing i might be more than just “weird” or whatever term people are currently using to describe me. what was the last one? unique. then before that everyone said eccentric. it’s a fucking nightmare the way words begin to follow me around. ANYWAY IDK WHY I’M BITCHING ON TUMBLR idk i just needed to express this & still not feel better afterward lmfao
i just… i feel so different. every day, i feel like i’m drifting away from humanity.
also 3 huge nerds somehow got suckered into following me today B)